Seize The Carp

Lovely

This last weekend was wonderful. I skipped classes on Friday, hung out in Bricktown for a few hours. I then traversed north to Stilly, where the weekend was great. Josh and a friend of his, Tyler came into town Thursday night. Katie came in on Friday night. Lots of talking and lots of drinks later Sunday came. I'm not putting any details. Mainly because they are mostly forgotten. I did say a lot of drinks. But it was fun. I needed that.

I don't want to sound needy, but I need somebody. Somebody to love and somebody to love me. Yeah sure I have unconditional love from my family, but I've never been in love. Nor had anyone in love with me. Like, sure. Lust, well look at me. How can they not? But love? Why not me? You're still young. That's what I keep hearing. Why can't the young have love? I am young, but I've had only one boyfriend in my life. It lasted a month.

Things are blurry now, too. God, I need to think. I need to cry. Dammit. I miss having friends. Friends that are around for more than parties. Friends that want to know me, not sleep with me. I want relationships with people other than myself. I want to trust. I don't want to be lonely any more.

posted by Unknown @ 20:06