Seize The Carp

back to silence

so since I only get yelled at for the things i write on this site, i won't write much on it anymore. hm...i'm sensing a pattern. i try to express what i'm feeling, write a few things down, get criticized for my feeling that way, and almost become a recluse in my writing. so........no more to very little on this site. bye to all.

So i had a million things running thru my head that i was going to write about and i've forgotten every single one of them. i wanna cry. i feel something is going to make me break down at any second and cry. but so far nothing and then i remember i have no reason to cry. these dead spots of my life are just so boring. do remember as a kid when everything was new? everything you'd see, feel , learn, touch, all of it was something new. when did that go away? i love/d new experiences, learning new things, feeling something for the first time. now it just seems that there is nothing new. my mind, body, heart all hurt. I'm tired. i want to sleep. just sleep. i give up. i'm done.

posted by Unknown @ 13:03