Seize The Carp

Music

So I'm watching CMT's 100 Greatest Duets right now. I love country music. Yes I'm a rock girl, but there's something about country music that just brings a smile to my heart. With rock, I'm awed and in a state of paralyzation just from the cool that rock is. But country makes me happy. It makes me wanna dance, drink, cry, love, and live. It opens my heart.

So my plight has become the ridicule of my father and other males in my family. "Why do ya keep chasing these guys off?" I don't chase at all. There's no point in chasing. "She has a list of rules and gives it to these guys before she goes on a date with 'em. If they don't follow a rule, 'here you didn't follow number 7', sorry no date." Thanks guys. Cause that helps. I'm such a perfectionist and driven person. If I want something, I go get it. I feel like such a failure in this part of my life. That's one thing with my generation, we were taught that failure is not an option. If you fail, you're nothing. We weren't taught about the lows of life. So I'm a failure at love. But don't ya have to have done/tried, before ya can succeed or fail? I haven't had that opportunity really. I mean 1 boyfriend, ever. So if I technically haven't failed why do I feel like it?

I've been making friends these last few weeks. But they're more like partying buddies. Which we all need those, but I don't know yet if I would talk to them outside of the reach of alcohol. But there is potential. Smile!

posted by Unknown @ 21:00