Seize The Carp

Where's the love?

Continued.....

I was giving this love thing another thought. While I was gone, I realized that I make my own destiny. If I want something done, it is in my power and control to make it happen. I just have to put my mind to it and it turns out better than planned. My life is up to me. But if that's true, then why o why does it not work like that with the heart? One can't just go and make love happen. It doesn't work that way. Am I so naive to think that love really does happen the way it is portrayed in the movies and magazines and other media? I keep waiting for love to find me and it never does. However, when I do try to take matters into my own hands, I'm not in control. I have no power. Things never go the way I want. I don't find love no matter what way I go about it. So what do I do? No really. What do I do? The magazines say confidence is sexy and great and what is looked for. I actually have confidance and love myself, but that area of my life hasn't changed. Sure the cool girl is the last one to settle. I'm not talking about settling. I'm just talking about something more than "damn, you're hot!" Well no shit. I know this. Why should I act naive and stupid about that? And why isit so hard for a guy to accept a girl who knows who she is, what she is, and what she wants? It's like they're scared. But it's not just a few it's all of them. I show that I'm sure of myself and then never really hear from them again, with the exception of the occasional "how ya doin?" The pleasantries and civilities that don't mean shit. AGH............ I'm done for now. I gotta sleep this off.

posted by Unknown @ 23:04